I sat down right on my bed that faithful Saturday night thinking about my life and how I was going to leave with what life just threw at me. Reality kept hitting me over and over again and I couldn’t do anything other than watch tears roll down my cheek and just ponder over what just happened a few hours ago. I continued pinching and hitting myself repeatedly to ascertain if it was a dream or a reality, the thought of what happened was seriously dealing with me and reality was staring at me. I kept forcing myself to believe this didn’t happen, I mean I wasn’t expecting it in any way, Not at this very point in my life, I have come too far to go back, I kept saying these words continually to myself and each time I say them uncontrollable tears were always accompanying them. Oh, how bitter and wicked this world can be! To even think that a human being created by God could do this to me without considering how I feel??? Oh, what a World! What a Wicked World! I never believed that such evil could be harboured by a being created by God.
I gave him all I had, and I made several sacrifices for him, all in a bid to prove my love for him. I would lie to my poor parents so many times that I needed money to sort out one problem or the other in school just because he told me he lacks money. I would even go to the extent of pretending to be sick to persuade my parents who out of pity will be forced to release the little money they have to save their dying daughter without knowing that she was giving this money to a guy. I am a good girl from a Christian home. I had resisted so many guys but I just couldn’t resist him because I believed we were meant for each other and we were going to marry ourselves so there was no need to hide anything. I gave out my virginity to him on the ground of love because of how deep I was into him. There were so many semesters where I would lie to my parents that I had some projects to handle in school simply because he wanted me to stay with him for some period. He literally turned me into his sex doll and even though I knew what we were doing was wrong and against my belief, I still had to do them just to please him.
Even when I mistakenly got pregnant on some of the occasions, He would brainwash me into believing that he wasn’t ready to be a father and that the pregnancy will ruin our lives and also destroy our hopes of becoming better persons. After hearing all these things, I will be left with no option than to look for a place I will abort the growing foetus with my own money. This guy had nothing but then loved him because I was seeing beyond physical wealth, the guy was handsome and intelligent, his also hardworking, caring and charming to mention but a few. These are some of the qualities that made me susceptible and ready to do whatever it will cost to have him all for myself.
In most relationships, guys are the ones who are expected to take care of the lady and they tend to spend more doing this but in my case, I was the one lavishing my money on him. I would buy him clothes, shoes and even when my friends began to make fond of me. I didn’t mention it to him and I never complained about the situation of this.
Even in our final year in school while we were preparing for our project defence, I could recall a couple of times I had to source funds to help him settle some bills leaving me to struggle with myself with the little remnant I had with me. I loved this guy so exceptionally that I was determined to go to any length to prove my claim and make him believe that I loved him. Throughout my stay in school, I never had feelings for any other guy after I met him nor did I cheat on him. He too on the other hand did not cheat on me to the best of my knowledge because he was more like an introverted kind of person who preferred to keep to himself. But little did I know that he was only a wolf in sheep’s clothing and was planning an evil bigger than whatever I could think not imagine. I mean this guy had his game planned out all along and he was just using me foolishly, Oh what a wasted Life!!
A few weeks after we graduated from the university, I asked him the way forward for the both of us and he said he wants to return to Abuja to stay with his family and then look for a job after which he will come back to see my people and pay my bride price. Little did I know that it was the last time we were ever going to talk again. He suddenly started acting strange immediately after he got to Abuja, he started avoiding my calls and everything about me, I tried messaging him via Whatsapp and other social media handles but he kept snubbing my messages. I became scared that something might have happened to him, I never knew any of his siblings because they weren’t staying close to our school and I couldn’t travel to Abuja with him during holidays so I couldn’t contact anybody to ask for his whereabouts. Although I wasn’t the praying kind of Christian, This case really scared me a lot and so I had to fix a 3-day personal fasting and prayer for myself to pray for him. I rolled and cried on the altar and even asked God to forgive us for the bad things we did in the past but things still didn’t change after my prayers. Days passed and weeks turned into months and he still wasn’t picking up my calls, I gradually started getting tired of everything. I decided to leave everything for God of course deciding to walk out of the relationship was not even an option I have come too far to turn back. I just went about my normal life and kept praying every day that a miracle will happen one day.
After about four months after his total disappearance and ghosting, I finally got a message from him. It was on a Saturday morning and after my morning prayers, I decided to go online and reply to some messages, immediately I saw his message I became excited and so curious to know what was the content. Oh, praise be to God! My prayers have finally been answered, I Said in my mind. I became more inquisitive when I saw a wedding card in the picture he sent to me, Maybe he printed our wedding card and decided to surprise me with it, Could it be that he was secretly working to come and marry me as he promised? Wow so finally I’m going to marry the man of my dreams and be with him forever?? All these questions were made clear when I started reading the details of the wedding card he sent. Jesus Christ! I shouted This can’t be true! The guy I sacrificed almost everything I had including my life for was about to wed another lady in Abuja and had sent the card to invite me. He has already paid her dowry and the wedding will be in two weeks. Uncontrollable tears started rolling down my cheeks, I found myself crying uncontrollably each time I tried to say anything, The bitter part of this story is that he didn’t even drop any other message asides from the picture. He just sent me the wedding card, he didn’t even care to apologize for what he did to me. Only a heartless Monster will perpetrate this kind of evil. I went back to the picture and kept zooming in and out over and over again to confirm what I saw and be sure I was seeing well. How could he do this to me? Where do I start? What wrong did I ever do to deserve this kind of punishment from someone I trusted with my own life? I kept wondering about ways and things I didn’t do well and I couldn’t think of any. It began to dawn on me that I was played for over two years. Oh my God! My parents will be so disappointed, I kept crying and weeping and just wishing I could drop dead immediately.
If only he could feel the pain I feel in my heart. If only he could look back and remember all the good things I did for him. If only he could remember all the risks I took just to make him happy. If only he could be reasonable and have a human heart. If only men could cry.
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Yes!!!
Men do cry, quite a tragic story.