Dear free one,
These days seem as if I am trying to conjure a form of your presence. No matter how much I try to imagine you as you were a form of vibrance it never feels real, oh well reality is a bit far from me these days.
I’m writing to you to create a sort of closeness to you ,offcourse I know it won’t feel the same nothing has been the same since you left. I have spiralled out of control and it is eating me up. I did something I shouldn’t have done and if you were here it wouldn’t have happened though I’m not trying to put any blame on you, it’s just that you were such a reality check for me every time and I really do miss that a whole lot!!. Maybe me writing to you is to create a semblance of you in my life and checkmate myself.
Will it work? Hehe I doubt ,you always said I was my greatest critic while that is accurate, it still remains to be a help to me.
Hell I thought criticism helps improve a person character and shape them into a better version of themselves It really doesn’t help me though, it just destabilizes the little normality I started to grow.
Here again one will think I am talking to someone close by. Oh well!
I’ll end my ranting today as it is seeming too monologue for a letter.
I hope you are at peace and happy where you are! I miss you .
©Oma
@yourpenship