Red Gold by Pam Rwang

Red Gold

Hey, today was the best, don’t you think so..
Thought I should let you know,
‘I hate that I have a red gold for you,
I hate that, I’m selfless when it comes to you,
Thinking about me is enough stress, talk more of you crouching in my mind. That I can’t handle, but shit happens.
I hate that I hate these thoughts,
I hate that it’s harder to go through my gallery without tapping on a photo of you.
I try running far away from you, but I find myself moving in circles back to you.
Aren’t you fed up? Sigh, yeah, cuz I am
Don’t you wish, we both wake up and say,”fuck it, be my bae and I’ll be your boo”. Lol, only it were that easy.
I’m dope and yeah, you’re a whole lot more.
I hate that, I can’t listen to a love song or watch a romantic movie without thinking about you by side, living our best lives together in a world of blues and rhythm.
What have you done?
“You’ll break me in the end”, so you said,
But, how much more can you break a man who’s already broken? When all he’s got is red gold, needing you to mend him back all together
I really don’t know how this will end, probably cause I don’t see an end with you.
But if it really comes, then I’m glad it was with you, cause for once love felt like a feeling, and damn, it felt fucking true.